Saturday, 16 October 2010

these paws have been keeping me company.....

paws.

Wow. It's been a month since I last posted, and I want to take a minute to thank all of you who wrote comments with advice about dealing with arm pains, Carpal Tunnel, and RSI - I haven't had the chance to write back to many of you personally, but your advice has been very helpful - thanks so much....

The better part of the last three weeks have been spent in a stupor - I finally got a diagnosis after a series of blood tests which showed up a critical Vitamin D deficiency - so I've been off work, and pretty much all other activities, and spending a good amount of couch time, sleeping, and watching practically every episode of 30 Rock I could get my hands on!

invalid

It's been pretty brutal actually - in addition to the pain in my arms, I've been struggling with an overwhelming exhaustion that only really made itself clear to me when the pain in my arms started to subside - suddenly I realised that I have been living in a fog for god knows how long, and slowly coming out of that fog is nothing short of a revelation.....

So, after a steady diet of massive doses of vitamin supplements, enforced rest, and at least ten minutes lying out in the sun every day (on doctors orders! ), I am finally feeling remotely human again. And no small part of that is finally being able to knit and sew again.

WIP

There's nothing like having your favourite thing in the world taken away from you to make you realise how important this stuff is. This whole time, my whole life actually, I thought that my creative side was a choice, that I chose to make things, to study art, to paint and draw and sew and knit because they were things I enjoyed doing. But after not being able to use my arms for a relatively short period of time, I have realised that this is not a choice. I make things because I have to. Because I would go crazy if I didn't. Because this is what I do.

I have no doubt that if I'd had to go another week without my hands, I would have turned homicidal, no question. Its an interesting perspective to have on something that most other people see as a hobby, no?

I have more to say on this topic, but that's a whole post in itself.

With every day of vitamins I gain some more energy, so I'm hoping that that energy will also flow down into the blog, and perhaps I will finally be able to make my presence felt here a little more than I have been.

And in that spirit, I finally took the photos of that steeking tutorial I've been promising for months now. Woo! Anything that combines knitting and single malt is a good thing in my book....

Steeking!

And perhaps, if all goes well, I'll even have photos of the six or so jumpers that I have knitted this year.... amazing.

More to come, sweet peas - I promise. Thanks for sticking around while I lost my shit. I really appreciate it.

xxxx

18 comments:

Jodie said...

So glad that yougot a diagnosis and are starting to feel better...
I sooo get the 'need' to make... Its not a choice at all.

Michelle said...

I'm glad you're feeling better!!

leslie said...

glad to hear from you and super glad that you are on the mend! i can totally relate to the no craft = crazy. if i can sneak in just an hour or two of sewing a day, it makes for a much happier me.

judysquiltsandthings said...

Yeah! To create is to BE human, at least in my world any way!

sooz said...

Looking forward to seeing you back to 100%. And I definitely get the making need - and so does my partner! We both know what I am like when I don't make time for making, and it's UGLY, so for us it's as necessary as working, shopping, sleeping. Hope your realisation leads to more contentment.

Sisters with Letters said...

Having lost it myself, I'm glad you found your shit! I was missing you and glad you're back and on the mend.

Open Roads Mama said...

Glad to see you're on the mend and will soon be enjoying what you love doing = knitting away :) Can't wait to see what you create next!

shula said...

Snap on the making things thing.

Do you need anything?

Julia said...

oh damn! i'm so glad you figured out what's going on and that you're on the road to recovery. can't wait to see what this new energy brings you.

Kristy said...

So glad you are feeling better. I didn't know Vitamin D deficiency could make you feel so bad.

Deleilan said...

A cuddly cat is a must-have accessory for getting better. I hope your treatment makes you feel like your old self again very soon!

Melbourne Vintage said...

So good to hear you are better. It takes a while to get out of a fog like that but you'll get there eventually! x

Anonymous said...

So glad to hear you are on the mend. Be well!

Leonie Guld said...

Yeah....Do I have my sister BACK? Wahoooo!! xx

Podam said...

Oh so glad to see you back and feeling better again! So excited to see more from you (:

Crayon Chick said...

Good to see you've been kept in good 'paws' during this time. I especially love the snuggled couch companion burrowed in your blankets! Thanks for sharing this story. I've been in denial about some not-quite-right pins and needles in my fingers for a while now, and late at night my mind wanders to 'what if ..' scenarios. I think a mandatory sit in the sun sounds like a good idea for everyone! Looking forward to seeing more from you soon.

Min said...

Glad to hear you are feeling better. I broke my hand in May and can still only knit in short bouts - gutting. Looking forward to you being back on form.

ms.gusset said...

Did you know that you can get vitamin D injections? they're covered by medicare and last for a year. totally recommend it.